Failing

I´m nervous!!! Afraid!! Feel alone - "uncertified" in some strange way.

Still, I want to choose to believe that I can do this!!!

I´m NOT alone!!! Even though I´m doing this by myself, I´m not alone!!!

God is walking every step I´m walking with me!!!

And I know people believe in me!!! And I know I make some good shots!!

I just don´t believe in myself as in who I am, and when that resurfaces, just like now,

that stings!!! But hey, how much more doesn´t it sting for God to see this - to know this!!

I´m shaking, so badly wanting to escape!!! But "you are my refuge", my strenght, my confidence, my worth, my back-bone when I don´t have any!!! You are my shield and my sword!! My creative thoughts and my favorite pen. My God!!!

How wonderful you are!!!!!!!!!!!!!!